Seems like a lot of people are killing themselves these days. Or maybe it's the same amount, and it just seems like more because some famous people did it. When you see the outpouring of emotion and sorrow over these people, you might think some of it is people just getting in on the drama, or exhibiting some narcissistic tendencies, and that probably is the case in more than a few of them. But for many people, these suicides leave a real hole in their life, and leave them wondering why and sometimes questioning if they want to go on or not. They are left hurting and sad, and wondering what could have been.
The thing is, you don't have to be a rock star to fuck up a lot of people's lives. If you decide to take your own life, you will hurt and scar a lot of people that care about you. You will hurt your family, and God forbid your children. You will deprive the people that love you of you, and you will leave them with questions that can never be answered, and you will take something from them that they can never get back. Don't do that to them.
Okay, that was an unabashed attempt to guilt you into not killing yourself, but it is all true. That said, don't cheat yourself, either. If you are prone to thoughts about it, if you suffer from depression or any mental illness that causes you to consider it, do whatever it takes to remind yourself that it's not always you talking. Your brain and it's mixed up signals and chemical reactions can make you think things are different than they really are. Do whatever you can to remember that. Keep your friends and family aware of what's going on, and let them know the minute you feel like you might be slipping. I know that's easier said than done, but try, because you have so many more moments of joy and triumph left to experience, believe me. Fight for yourself and the people that love you.
And finally, if you are being bullied, or your heart is broken, or things are just totally shit in your life right now, don't just throw everything away for what will amount to a brief moment in your life. Broken hearts heal, school is just a small chapter in your life, and most likely whatever you are dealing with can be fixed or improved upon. Whatever you are dealing with, someone else has dealt with too. Talk to people about it, and you will be surprised at how unoriginal your pain is.
On that front, here is a story about the time I tried to kill myself. It was a wrong decision made in haste at a time when I really wasn't in any shape to make that decision. I am here to tell you that I am so lucky things didn't work out and I got to live the rest of my life. I would have missed out on so many things and memories that I cherish, and you will too.
So if you think you might want to do it, reach out, to anyone that will listen, because there is always someone that will listen.
The thing is, you don't have to be a rock star to fuck up a lot of people's lives. If you decide to take your own life, you will hurt and scar a lot of people that care about you. You will hurt your family, and God forbid your children. You will deprive the people that love you of you, and you will leave them with questions that can never be answered, and you will take something from them that they can never get back. Don't do that to them.
Okay, that was an unabashed attempt to guilt you into not killing yourself, but it is all true. That said, don't cheat yourself, either. If you are prone to thoughts about it, if you suffer from depression or any mental illness that causes you to consider it, do whatever it takes to remind yourself that it's not always you talking. Your brain and it's mixed up signals and chemical reactions can make you think things are different than they really are. Do whatever you can to remember that. Keep your friends and family aware of what's going on, and let them know the minute you feel like you might be slipping. I know that's easier said than done, but try, because you have so many more moments of joy and triumph left to experience, believe me. Fight for yourself and the people that love you.
And finally, if you are being bullied, or your heart is broken, or things are just totally shit in your life right now, don't just throw everything away for what will amount to a brief moment in your life. Broken hearts heal, school is just a small chapter in your life, and most likely whatever you are dealing with can be fixed or improved upon. Whatever you are dealing with, someone else has dealt with too. Talk to people about it, and you will be surprised at how unoriginal your pain is.
On that front, here is a story about the time I tried to kill myself. It was a wrong decision made in haste at a time when I really wasn't in any shape to make that decision. I am here to tell you that I am so lucky things didn't work out and I got to live the rest of my life. I would have missed out on so many things and memories that I cherish, and you will too.
So if you think you might want to do it, reach out, to anyone that will listen, because there is always someone that will listen.
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